Fucking shit this is so not my fucking week dude. Fer Real!

Well chuck told me last night that he really liked Sara. ok I  dont really care but then this morning Rayaena tells me and sara that shes going out with Chuck since last night. so Sara is half about to cry because he pretty much got her hopes up high and he was probably just going to use her. How fucked up is that. Well we sat down and fucking were hella fucking late to biochemistry. Its stupid.

then in that class its just so fucking gay you have no idea. OMFG! The teacher is a fucking weirdo! i swear! The second I say something negative she flips out on me. its like what the fuck does she have against me?!

Then tony is being a totaly dick weed! fucking shit. i told alex that he would probably have sex with her a thousand times more than he would with me and she asked and I guess he realized i said something about it because this morning he gave me a fucking dirty ass look and fucking looked at Alex and said so loud! and Im not even kidding, but he said it in the ruddest voice ever "Alex I WILL fuck you" and then he walked off and fucking shit it was so stupid. I dont know how to change shit dude!

Then I was talking with Jackie yesterday and she says I need to ignore all the bad things. that maybe I should change into the person I want to be. What do I want to be? a hardcore person? Fuck no. i want to be normal. nota prep but the way I am is normal. yet I hate who I am inside. you see what Im saying? its just so fucking stupid and I cant handle how people always say this stupid shit about me when they dont evemn know me

I fucking hate my life so much right now. last night I was about to overdose. i seriously was. And all because Im alone...I have no one and no one is out there........so for everyone who always tells me that someone's outhere for me.....get a fucking clue and realize....I HAVE NO ONE IN THIS FUCKING WORLD!!!!!!